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Depressed Rememberings of Past Depressions

In a cheap hotel room I sat with my laptop googling prices of helium and co2 gas. When I wasn’t doing that I was seeing if there were any times listed online for freight trains near where I was sleeping. … Continue reading

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Fall Melancholy

Its hit me the other day. I woke up hopeful, refreshed, ready to tackle the day. I grabbed a cup of coffee, sat down at the computer, and it hit me out of nowhere, the fall melancholy. I sat at … Continue reading

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Pennsyltuckians Aint All Bad

When I was a senior in high school, I decided to attend a college that was in Pennsyltucky land.  If you’re not familiar with that term, its what we inner city/suburban liberal folk call the rural areas of Pennsylvania that … Continue reading

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Not Putting the Pieces Back Together: New Beginning

The final months of 2016 and the beginning months of 2017 were very trying and marked the end of an era for me. Brief Summary: I was swinging between depression and mania, I impulsively quit a job that was bad for … Continue reading

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Farewell Grandmom Bell

So thats it, you’re gone. Its funny, I started working on a family tree a couple of years ago and there were so many questions I wanted to ask you, so much I realized I didn’t know about your life. … Continue reading

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Recovery is a lie

Is recovery a lie? I think it is but we all have different definitions of recovery I guess. Recovery for me has always meant a life free of symptoms of my mental illness or at least learning ways to cope … Continue reading

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I Breathe

Eyes wide,  Each step intentional,  I breathe consciously,  Inhale peace,  Exhale strife,  I’m breathing through my life,  Each moment aware,  I feel the pain and despair,  I breathe,  I feel the contentment and peace,  I breathe,  I listen,  I learn,  … Continue reading

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